Of Shadows & Shallows

There was him.
He was, and is,but a human.
As were those around him.


In an anonymous education centre,he was asked stupid questions.
Annoyed.
Stalked.
Transferred from class to class.
Held electronic keys to form melodies.
Feared by assumption.
Admired over dramatically.
Spoken to like an idiot,by idiots.
What else had happened,only God knows.


And then came silence,abundant.
There was so much silence you could sing of it.
Except you can't.


Silence came and went.
As did secrets,subterfuge and cunning.
And open-mindedness.
And random random words.
As did the sarcasm.
As did the cronies of the Addicted.

***

One day in the wondrous invention of mankind.
Called a vehicle;
Called a van,a bus,a form of transport;whichever you please.
One individual, seemingly hurt in the past,was seen staring at the world around.
And that was that.
Silence remained.

***

Out in the courtyard,
Or a likeness of one.
People played with balls,levers,feathers and skin.
They played.

One or two hurt a bone;
One fell from a throne.
Two pulled muscles.
Two broke joints.
Fools bustled,
Even in the glade of books.

***

Two computers lay side by side.
But on either side of each,
Lay walls out of reach.

***

In Asgard Valkyries dance.
In the land of the daybreak,the Amaranth hides.
In shadows lurk mysteries;
In shallows lie history.

***

Parallel in being.
Intersecting by fate.
Different by feature;
Similar by nature.

Time creeps by.
Ties change.
The chord is altered;
From harmony,
To cacophony.

People live,
People lie;
People will,
Not to die.

***

Her name was Maria.
She lost the first lamb.
A bed of frozen roses
Fall by the midnight lamp.


The lamb was Ignorance.
Blissful it be.
Too much wisdom,
Will cause harm to thee.

***

Shadows shift.
By the wind's drift.
The luminescent light,
Calling and fading.


Shallows they rise.
As do the tides.
Of water and sand.
Of burden and trial.

***

In the days of Christ,
The Lord said unto humanity:
"Destroy this temple,and I shall raise it for thee"

In the days of plight,
The Furies said unto humanity:
"Take these treasures, and bow down and worship me"

In the days of light,
The Sun beckons unto thee:
"Follow my grace,and be led to safety"

In the days of night,
The Moon is silent;
The stars they shine to light your way.
In the twilight of Sorrow's Day.

The Something

That something was there.
It won't go away.
It's still here.
It's watching you.
It's laughing at you.
It's shadowing you.
It's ANNOYING.








It's your own ass lah.

Chains

The stench of fresh grease on the links...

The vice grip of the link edges pressing down on your skin...

The reinforced lock which ties your chains together...

The sweat trickling down your wrists and legs,drenching your clothes and covering the cold,stainless steel...


Such are the feelings of a chain tied on a human with immobilizing motives...Physically...

We see mental chains everyday..

When you decide you'll do your homework because Dad/Mom told you to do so..

When you abides by rules out of compulsion,force...

When you succumb to the hysteric peer pressured & peer pressure-ees...

When you choose to trust/not to trust that inquisitive/empathizing person/persons...


It happens...Chains everywhere,but who to break them?


You & YOU ALONE


So rules were meant to maintain peace...Prevent riots...

And look at the hypocritical government...The corrupt police,corrupt ministers,asshole teachers,over-protective/apathetic parents...

Ah...Peace and balance...serenity and unity throughout the country...
Right....

Not all thieves and robbers steal out of greed...
Not all gangsters are gangsters just to have fun...
Not all gangsters who are gangsters who wanna have fun just wanted something more than the fun they already had..THEY WERE BLOODY BORED WITH LIFE


Why do we go to school?

To get good marks for exams to raise the family honour...
To get that degree for job qualifications...

Yet everywhere I look I see students studying for these sakes,getting great marks and remarks but are in fact some of the stupidest people I've ever met...

Now...In school...You are trained to know...Not to understand or think.

True goal of going to school:To find out what are your talents & passions.

YES you bore me..
YES I look upon you with disdain!
YES I despise you all!
YES I pity you like SHIT
YES I'm ranting because I actually give a damn about the human race

Do yourself a favor,prove me wrong.

Prove you know your life is worth more than wanting to be like that popular person.
Prove you are actually worthy of being called human.
Prove you actually have a purpose.
Prove you actually deserve to LIVE

And then there was music....

Nothing much to blog about...

Had a performance during lunch time on the keyboard with random clapping at unwanted times...Though I liked part of it of course =)

PE session wasn't too bad...Unless you count playing badminton and being unable to see the ball in the bloody dark court (warehouse in actuality)

Teacher Deborah played today!Along with Missy She-Who-Thinks-Ima-Boi-But-Is-A-Girl-With-A Guy-like name aka. Kimberly Koh.

Now what......Let's see what's left...

1) Chris (who was Jim last month and is actually Timothy) used double mops again today....
2) Jonathan Goh brought a book entitled "BoyMeetsGirl: Say hello to Courtship" or something like that...It had people....Mesmerized...zzz
3)One racket belonging to me getting passed between Kimmy-Mei Ling-Nicolette

Currently learning up Silk Road(Si Lu,but not dead end...),Secret and of course.....still working on God Knows and Aerith's Theme...

Thanks for the K-Pop book....Kimmy...


I FOUND KENT'S BLOG!RAWR

Still not...

So it seems I'm stuck in an emotional hiatus.
So it seems the chat windows pop up only because I've "disappeared" from Seafield for more than a week.
So it seems I'm still wondering what's going on in her mind.

Teachers are asking questions eh?
Screw it.
Warning letter threats??Bring it on.

I'm still part of Seafield...Only I can't attend on weekdays.
Say I'm transferring school eh?
Strangely I find I'm somehow still in possession of a certain brass instrument...
Strangely I find Tracey confused about the situation.
Not so strangely(because of Tracey),Tien Jia says I can't perform since I'm "not at Seafield anymore".
Even more strangely I find nearly no one seems to realize I'm still holding the band's Baritone...
Strangely still everyone just says things at school are...boring...fine...nothing much...as usual...etc etc.

If you've watched the TV series "House",you'll have learned that everyone lies...
People lie when they don't want to admit something...
People lie when they done something embarrassing...
People lie to cover up for something/someone...
People lie to convince/influence people...Politicians,despo Christians or other religious people,leaders of groups and/or organizations...
People lie to conceal their feelings towards something/someone...
People lie about all sorts of things...

After being gone from Seafield for nearly a fortnight..
I started wondering...
Who are the ones who actually miss me?
Who are the ones who merely open that MSN chat window because of the circulating rumors,their own curiosity,because they were asked to ask by a teacher?

Yea,a part of me likes it that hardly anyone notices that I've been gone...
Oh,and they don't bother cause they assume I go everyday but they don't see me.
Oh,and others assume I'm sick!
Oooo,and others say I've transfered!
Oh oh oh,and some say I'm playing truant!What FUN!

Still don't know why money won't let me learn my musical instruments.

Still don't know why people play peer pressure while I'm one of the targets.

Still awing at the fact that I've never been asked to an outing in 3 years.

Still thinking how strange it is that I've only ever recieved 1 phone call from a friend in 3 years not counting standard 6 classmates.

Still not ever the 'normal' guy.Why would I want to BE normal??

Still never had the lasting "close friend"....I heal your pain and you ALL start drifting away;then hardly wanting to talk;then ignore my presence.

One Life

So I made a few friends who are mostly from SeGi college..One Form 6 Seafieldian (Esther)..
We went to the church DreamCentre at Section 14 for this One Life convention last Friday.

In the entrance hall...Sold Out was playing...

So this is the exhibit entrance...You walk through rooms with some audio playing in your ears and you experience the lives of 3 victims of the HIV virus.
Sad stories all of them.
But the most inspiring story has got to be the one about the Cambodian girl - Srey Mom

After the exhibit..A few words spoken by Max...Some sharing of thoughts and...
We met the Hitz FM Ford runners outside.

From left to right:Fairuz(hope this is right) the virus;Chunky Monkey;Adrian

Played some games...Answered some questions...Weird at that...Have a look...

It says "Life Without Passion Is Unforgivable" - Sean John Comes (P Diddy)

(It's perfume by the way)

God Knows

A great song done by Aya Hirano. Lyrics translation thanks to DarkMirage. Song provided,posted on E-snips. Feel the music. Get this widget | Track details | eSnips Social DNA kawaita kokoro de kakenukeru gomen ne nani mo dekinakute itami wo wakachiau koto sae anata wa yurushite kurenai

I run past others with a parched heart. Sorry, I can't do anything. You won't even let me Share our pain together.

muku ni ikiru tame ni furimukazu senaka mukete satteshimau on the lonely rail

To live on without tarnish, I face your back and head out without looking back on the lonely rail

watashi tsuiteiku yo donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae kitto anata wa kagayaite koeru mirai no hate yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni my way kasanaru yo ima futari ni God bless...

I will follow you. No matter how agonizing the world is, You will shine even in its darkest corners. Cross over the end of the future, My weakness will not shatter my spirit. my way is overlapping with yours. For the two of us, God bless...

todokete atsuku naru omoi wa genjitsu tokashite samayou aitai kimochi ni riyuu wa nai anata e afuredasu Lovin' you

This warming affection that reaches me, It melts my reality and roams my heart. I don't need a reason for wanting to meet you, Just my overflowing feelings, Lovin' you

semete utsukushii yume dake wo egakinagara oikakeyou for your lonely heart

For now, let's paint a beautiful dream And chase after for your lonely heart

yamete uso wa anata rashikunai yo me wo mite kore kara no koto wo hanasou watashi kakugo shiteru kurai mirai datte tsuyoku natte unmei kaerareru kamo ne my wish kanaetai noni subete wa God knows...

Stop it, it's not like you to lie. Look at my eyes and let's talk about our future. I am prepared, Even if the future is bleak, I might be able to change destiny if I become stronger. But for my wish to come true, Everything God knows...

anata ga ite watashi ga ite hoka no hito wa kieteshimatta awai yume no utsukushisa wo egakinagara kizuato nazoru

You are here, I am here. Everyone else has disappeared. While we paint the beauty of this fleeting dream, We trace out the lines of our scars.

dakara watashi tsuiteiku yo donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae kitto anata wa kagayaite koeru mirai no hate yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni my way kasanaru yo ima futari ni God bless...

That's why I will follow you. No matter how agonizing the world is, You will shine even in its darkest corners. Cross over the end of the future, My weakness will not shatter my spirit. my way is overlapping with yours. For the two of us, God bless... The Literal Meaning... With a thirsty heart, I run through the door I'm sorry, there is nothing more I can do Even something like sharing pain with you You do not allow me to do it (You) can not turn around to live for a pure life With face turn toward the back, you are leaving "On the lonely rail" I am going with you now No matter how painful how dark the world you will be live in Surely your light will always be there Suppress even the future's result To shine on many soul with weak cause so they won't be broken "My way"　overlap you Now two of us "God bless" To delivered the hot feeling that I had Is practical with reality, I wonder? The feeling that want to meet with you have no reason Toward you I am overflowed with "Lovin' you" Even it is only a beautiful dream While drawing it, I will chase it "For your lonely heart" Stop! lying in front of me! It is not like you I see it, so let's talk about what will we do I know my Determination Even in the dark future, If we become strong, fate probably can be changed "My wish" I want to realize it Everything "God knows" You are still here, I am still here But everyone else already disappear Fleeting dream, while you drawing its beauty Also trace your scar Therefore, I am going with you now No matter how painful how dark the world you will be live in Surely your light will always be there Suppress even the future's result To shine on many soul with weak cause so they won't be broken 　　　　 "My way" overlap you Now two of us　"God bless" The Translation Which Can Be Sung With The Song..(Done by Jahn) I’m running blind; I know my heart can’t take anymore Hard to forgive, I couldn’t help but fall again You’ve shut me out, unreachable and now you’re alone You take it all, and you won’t let me share your pain I’ll turn back; and even though I know that it’s over Will I really leave, do you really want me on that lonely rail I’ll follow Deep into the evening Even though you’ll leave me Through the cold I’ll push the hours away until I find you You’re looking forward and wait for the day You’re shining Guiding me forever Past my indiscretion We’re far apart but you’ll lead me back again and my ways Will someday cross with yours again Together as God blessed Passionate thoughts, they fall into your crystalline gaze Melting away into our harsh reality No reason why, but I still try to find you again You’re rushing down; I’m swept away by loving you Even so, I believe I’ll capture this moment Beauty fades away; but I’m always aching for your lonely heart I’m ready Face to face I’ll tell you No more time for lying We can’t spare a moment to look; Our love couldn’t survive there No reaching back for all our regrets I’m stronger Always moving forward Destiny is changing I want to know what the morning brings because it’s my wish Completing every plan we shared Together as God knows I know that we exist Everyone may disappear into a dream, And yet your vision still remains I try to chase the past I outline all our hopes before they fade away But I just trace the scars I’ll answer, I’ll follow Deep into the evening Even though you’ll leave me Through the cold I’ll push the hours away until I find you You’re looking forward and wait for the day You’re shining Guiding me forever Past my indiscretion We’re far apart but you’ll lead me back again and my ways Will someday cross with yours again Together as God blessed