Still not...

So it seems I'm stuck in an emotional hiatus.
So it seems the chat windows pop up only because I've "disappeared" from Seafield for more than a week.
So it seems I'm still wondering what's going on in her mind.

Teachers are asking questions eh?
Screw it.
Warning letter threats??Bring it on.

I'm still part of Seafield...Only I can't attend on weekdays.
Say I'm transferring school eh?
Strangely I find I'm somehow still in possession of a certain brass instrument...
Strangely I find Tracey confused about the situation.
Not so strangely(because of Tracey),Tien Jia says I can't perform since I'm "not at Seafield anymore".
Even more strangely I find nearly no one seems to realize I'm still holding the band's Baritone...
Strangely still everyone just says things at school are...boring...fine...nothing much...as usual...etc etc.

If you've watched the TV series "House",you'll have learned that everyone lies...
People lie when they don't want to admit something...
People lie when they done something embarrassing...
People lie to cover up for something/someone...
People lie to convince/influence people...Politicians,despo Christians or other religious people,leaders of groups and/or organizations...
People lie to conceal their feelings towards something/someone...
People lie about all sorts of things...

After being gone from Seafield for nearly a fortnight..
I started wondering...
Who are the ones who actually miss me?
Who are the ones who merely open that MSN chat window because of the circulating rumors,their own curiosity,because they were asked to ask by a teacher?

Yea,a part of me likes it that hardly anyone notices that I've been gone...
Oh,and they don't bother cause they assume I go everyday but they don't see me.
Oh,and others assume I'm sick!
Oooo,and others say I've transfered!
Oh oh oh,and some say I'm playing truant!What FUN!

Still don't know why money won't let me learn my musical instruments.

Still don't know why people play peer pressure while I'm one of the targets.

Still awing at the fact that I've never been asked to an outing in 3 years.

Still thinking how strange it is that I've only ever recieved 1 phone call from a friend in 3 years not counting standard 6 classmates.

Still not ever the 'normal' guy.Why would I want to BE normal??

Still never had the lasting "close friend"....I heal your pain and you ALL start drifting away;then hardly wanting to talk;then ignore my presence.