Dread

Looking at the calendar for next year alone daunts me, it almost terrifies me.
I hate the anticipation of many things, resenting more Sejarah, more Moral, sucking at more Physics and Add Math, etc etc.
People finding the fact that I don't study for exams weird....
I could get a PhD just knowing what to expect.

People all need money, question is where does money come from?
Money is abstract, it only exists because we agree that it does.
If one day everyone agreed that money is just paper,
What the hell are those things for?

It takes a long time for anyone to fathom emotions.
Are they really hormones?
Why does it take so long to just figure that out huh?

After thinking for a long time.
The only thing I need now to get anywhere in the world or do anything, the only damn thing missing from my life, is damn money.
Oh why couldn't I lack in something else instead of something so trivial yet so out of reach.