Do you know?

Do you know what it's like to be unappreciated by your own parents? Whatever skills you have they dismiss; whatever weaknesses they berate. To be forcefully moulded to their sick idea of a success plan; to be reprimanded for anything about you different to their useless ideals. To be hit and called useless for being something other than they want; to feel unloved and unwanted by the very people who brought you to this world.

That's my father. I do not love him.
Because he cannot accept me.

If that's how I've got to live my life,

Maybe I don't want to wake up.

Home

Let me stay home.

Tonight I fly the starry sky,

Tomorrow I cry and cry.

Look at my eyes,

These tears they shine with memories,

The summer days; The summer nights.

Let me be home.

At 2120 hours that plane I catch,

Look out your window,

Stare at that sky bereft of stars.

And maybe you'll see my airplane,

And we'll pretend it's our shooting star.

Let me go home.

These cards and letters I read,

Those memoirs I keep;

Arrayed faces and places,

Secrets and revelations,

Indeed the last dance is complete.

Let me remember home.

The sighing breeze;

The singing trees.

The breaking dawn and the melancholy twilight.

Things once unkown,

Carved now on stone.

To never fade even in the darkest day.

Someday, I'll know.

I'm already home.

I'm home.

For SeaYunn; for those who shared days and memories with her.

每一次

今天我想，为什么我家人只会让我生气？家人不应该是给我开心，温暖的吗？

I've never gotten a surprise for my birthday before, so thank you my dear P gang. Though this is our only year knowing each other in Seafield, it has been quite a time...It has been quite a time.

有没有想过：如果能暂时飞去另一个世界，无时间的限制，没烦恼。我最近想你太多了，不知为何你一直给我你那让我催眠的眼神；你不是还爱着他吗？

今天发现我还收着你那根褐色的头发；对呀，我为何把它收起来？它不过是一根头发而已；因为要提醒自己这一次，是不会轻易放手的；因为幸福是要自己去追求的，而不是傻傻在那儿等着幸福的来到。也许，我无法去坦白跟你说， 因为我害怕你会像以前的人一样离开。


Who is to say what will happen tomorrow. Maybe I'll give up on a few things, settle for less; maybe even let go. After all, who am I to keep you. I am just an artist, a scholar tinkering with his thoughts both great and insignificant. I create; it is up to you to interpret, to consider; and perhaps admire, and even appreciate.


我昨天一直沉迷着王力宏的Kiss Goodbye歌曲。一直想起那两句我最喜欢的歌词：
“每一次想开口但不如保持安静；
给我一分钟专心，好好欣赏你的美”


这首歌，献给你。

Eternal

The bones and memories of others lie scattered on the wastelands of broken dreams. Dreams, they spawn from the mind of sleep; and sleep, she lay next to death.

Trudging through the dustiness, there is nothing to be seen in all directions but the carcasses of things once grand, the shattered diamonds of hopes and aspirations; they all lay forgotten in this abysmal plain. Where are their dreamers and creators? All lost to time, nothing but the shadow of memories.

In the vast, bare, landscape, there is nothingness; for everything comes eventually to rest in this dismal place. The sun and moon in this ethereal plane shine perpetually, and yet their light does not illuminate. There are no longer the bright shiners, for they have been cast into the void of all of men's failures.

Who rules over these lands?

The king of memories; he who remembers and forgets; he who memories revolve and orbit upon like celestial spheres; he who is and is not.

And he sits upon the ancient throne of sleep and dreams. Perhaps he is death himself, but who are we to glance upon his countenance? We who defile, they who condemn, they who know not the meaning of sin, they who are self-righteous.

All to be forgotten by the king of memories; all to forever remain in the wasteland, forgotten, forsaken, worse than dead, worse than being in the eternal fires of hell.
In heaven you are remembered for deeds; in hell you are recalled for sins.
In the wasteland you are not even junk, you are not even nothing.
In the wasteland you do not exist.

原因

为什么会爱她，喜欢她？

因为她会使我笑，令我开心。

实现梦想

最近有许多梦想；到底能实现吗？想到明年要考钢琴的第八级了；我考得到上吗？我现在的准备因该是不足，令我十分操心。年尾有有SPM, 烦死了！

看到一些人的幸福，我会觉得一点羡慕；我怎么没呢？
别人烦恼是因为会失去珍贵的东西，我却因为没能失去的东西而难过。