Do you know?

Do you know what it's like to be unappreciated by your own parents? Whatever skills you have they dismiss; whatever weaknesses they berate. To be forcefully moulded to their sick idea of a success plan; to be reprimanded for anything about you different to their useless ideals. To be hit and called useless for being something other than they want; to feel unloved and unwanted by the very people who brought you to this world.

That's my father. I do not love him.
Because he cannot accept me.

If that's how I've got to live my life,

Maybe I don't want to wake up.

Home

Let me stay home.

Tonight I fly the starry sky,

Tomorrow I cry and cry.

Look at my eyes,

These tears they shine with memories,

The summer days; The summer nights.

Let me be home.

At 2120 hours that plane I catch,

Look out your window,

Stare at that sky bereft of stars.

And maybe you'll see my airplane,

And we'll pretend it's our shooting star.

Let me go home.

These cards and letters I read,

Those memoirs I keep;

Arrayed faces and places,

Secrets and revelations,

Indeed the last dance is complete.

Let me remember home.

The sighing breeze;

The singing trees.

The breaking dawn and the melancholy twilight.

Things once unkown,

Carved now on stone.

To never fade even in the darkest day.

Someday, I'll know.

I'm already home.

I'm home.

For SeaYunn; for those who shared days and memories with her.

每一次

今天我想，为什么我家人只会让我生气？家人不应该是给我开心，温暖的吗？

I've never gotten a surprise for my birthday before, so thank you my dear P gang. Though this is our only year knowing each other in Seafield, it has been quite a time...It has been quite a time.

有没有想过：如果能暂时飞去另一个世界，无时间的限制，没烦恼。我最近想你太多了，不知为何你一直给我你那让我催眠的眼神；你不是还爱着他吗？

今天发现我还收着你那根褐色的头发；对呀，我为何把它收起来？它不过是一根头发而已；因为要提醒自己这一次，是不会轻易放手的；因为幸福是要自己去追求的，而不是傻傻在那儿等着幸福的来到。也许，我无法去坦白跟你说， 因为我害怕你会像以前的人一样离开。


Who is to say what will happen tomorrow. Maybe I'll give up on a few things, settle for less; maybe even let go. After all, who am I to keep you. I am just an artist, a scholar tinkering with his thoughts both great and insignificant. I create; it is up to you to interpret, to consider; and perhaps admire, and even appreciate.


我昨天一直沉迷着王力宏的Kiss Goodbye歌曲。一直想起那两句我最喜欢的歌词：
“每一次想开口但不如保持安静；
给我一分钟专心，好好欣赏你的美”


这首歌，献给你。