Wonders why I'm triple posting.

Seems that I'm having torrents of meaningless thoughts running through my head.
And I'm writing all this out of being unable to make sense of any of it.

Seems that I need doses of bittersweet things again.

I have grown ignorant of some things after realizing others.

Shame grows as I realize more of my imperfections.

But why does pride grow when I have nothing to be proud of?

Needs an editor.
I can't stand having to explain my posts because of ambiguity.

Double posting for the worst time ever I think.

Funny life. Had another one of those moments where you float out of your body and you wonder what the hell you really are on Friday.

Not the best of times.

Just thought of this.
Raising sensitive issues is one thing, what about overreacting to them?

SH made me realize some points about my style of writing.

I make myself sound way cocky.
True enough, I realized its truth after several re-readings.

Do forget this.

Afterall I'm still a nobody.

Barely, but still...

" Why practise so hard? You'll never beat the giants. You're never gonna be one. "
- Some ex-band teacher

How is it that a "servant of God" is telling others that something is impossible? How ironic. Oh you may or may not know who she is but if you do, you GET my point...

Hold your piss, how can a band teacher demotivate his/her own band?

With allies like this, who needs adversaries?


And the few envious seafield bandies, don't envy me. It took me 16 years to learn the flute in 2 days and other stuff. And I wasn't given more than any of you, I pay for my talents by sucking in other aspects.

Maybe you feel the same.

Dare To Fail

I had a go at actual conducting by request of Lavy on Saturday.I guess I didn't do too well. Although I did actually manage to pinpoint and correct some minor (and possibly major) faults/errors/mistakes/flaws or whatever you want to call them. Yea, more egoistic words might just spill.

Sher Hann had a rather amusing idea of writing a true account what you did in band, for band or to band, in letter form and sealing anything along with it in an envelope. But to what point and purpose if no one reads it though?Anyone care to explain? I'm kinda slow these days.

Some may or may not have noticed that I've been rather insensitive or quick to diss the past few practices. Assuming it's safe to assume that some band members actually read this tiresome, egoistic, lonely blog of mine, I offer my apologies to anyone who I may or may not have wronged and may or may not know it.Oh, wordplay.

Wee Ren introduced to me this insteresting piece "Flight of Valor" which Lick Hung's band played for the IOI mall contest back in his Lick Hung days. Have to get the song somehow.... Very insteresting stuff.Mundaneness comes to the minds of many a band member when one speaks of practicing Singapore Rhapsody. Yea, SSB has been playing this song for too long.
And guess who wants to show off some more quotes of his...

"What is passion without effort, or effort without passion?"

"He who studies for good results will learn nothing from studying; He Who studies for knowledge, will learn all."

I guess I've decided, a Trombone and a Tenor Sax. Maybe an Alto in future.


"I'm not going because I want to die, I'm going because I want to find out if I truly lived."
- Spike, Cowboy Bebop

When you have truly lived, you die with no regrets.

Fading Ideas

I made a cool composition somewhat like a prelude today.

Great....But for the fact I can't remember how to play it again...

Got to try harder....


Woodwinds and Brass instruments need lots of care...More than the band members are having the time to do.

Brass instruments need to be dried and aerated after playing. Also they need to be cleaned out at least once every 3 months. Some mild soap is plausible and the water musn't be hot.

Woodwinds need to be dried out too, and aerated. Then there's the tedious task of wiping off your sweat which will eat away the instrument's finish and cleaning out the inside of the instrument. There's also making sure the pads that seal the holes air-tight don't soak up and swell, affecting your playing.

No mystery why our instruments rot.

Erudition

These words speak for themselves. Enjoy the profound truths you may or may not find.

"There is no man of the march today"
- Cheng

Yea smart, turn the band members against each other....

"Don't care if PIBG doesn't support you, most importantly you have to support yourselves"
"This band (SSB) can absorb one"
-Samuel

"It's damn weird turning to the right while facing front while holding the flute cause the flute also faces the right"
- Flutists

"Water....."
-Band Members

"Secondary school standard is 32-counts (long note)"
- Jit Qi

"Compete in Section A better, at least if you lose you're beaten by the greatest."
-Mr Mah

"I don't understand lo, we sacrifice so much to go for pratice yet we get scold and the people who didn't come can enjoy their bed at home and not get punished the next time they come"
- Anonymous SSB Member

Removed by request of an anxious Sher Hann.
-Sher Hann


That's it about band I guess. Now for my epiphany.

"Though we are born equal, perhaps we are each given an equal chance to be unequal. Greater than some, or most others of our own age, perhaps older."
- Me~